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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

with ♥ 11:21 PM

i know i found my own piece of forever. whatever happened today made me even more sure than ever that i love my baby and he's just the one. (: thanks baby. for everything; i'll happily take up the "punishment" of taking care of you for life. X) you're worth whatever it takes. <3> i love you. <3
yst shopping with baby was well. fruitful in a way. initially i was close to tears cos nvr in my life has shopping been so FUTILE. the top i wanted at dorothy perkins- gone. the shirt i wanted at armani exchange- gone. diva bangles and earrings-gone. :( everything i wanted to buy no more ok. :( but in the end at heeren i bought a top. phew. :D it is CNY shopping so at least i gt sth alrdy. its pretty, like rly sweet kinda. i dont rly wear such but it was rly nice. and a new bag! big enuff for me to stuff everything in- sweet. baby bought a nike shirt too after i persuaded. heheheheh. well anyway. my colourful bag fell apart so its time to get a new bag. it was heart wrenching to throw my colourful bag away though. it has lived thru j1 with me :( :( :( goodbye, coloury! :(

anyway. im contemplating whthr to get a nike top. its pretty! but ex for a top. like $70 bucks. im trying to save alrdy you know! since i alrdy have one CNY top... [to baby: penguin is happy alrdy ok.] :D plus, xmas presents burnt a hole.... oh well.

okay. sch's starting soon! better finish my hw soon :\ oopsie daisy. and my new timetable is out!!!!!! tuesday is tiring. :( and i think alot tch change. im upset. sighs. and how i wish bmt will stop soon zomg. STOP STOP STOP!!! waste my time. :( and i can go dancing once training stops ;) yay yay yay!

ok apparently they have this new youth olympics course thing for jc students.i saw on news yst. and our aj tch got interviewed on tv. great. i hope they dont implement for jc2 students. i know, all roundedetc etc students are the best. but have they spared a thought for mediocre students like me? after we ENDURED pw and chinese in jc1, jc2 is the time for us to chiong and study alrdy. we need all the time we can have, and we're alrdy dead beat with all the H2s and H1s. im not those smarty pants that got straight As for promos. i SCRAPED past. sigh. sometimes i wish the ppl who implement such stuff can put themselves in our shoes. our, as in mediocre, normal students. not smart ass students. :( jc's torture all right. sometimes i wish i had gone to poly instead. why din they implement for poly? i can never understand.

well sigh. as i always say. i cant wait to be a 在家妈妈 and take care of my children. really. that'd be bliss.

-jinghui-

Labels: i love you.

there goes christmas.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

with ♥ 3:14 PM

christmas was lovely. :) baby visited my ah ma with my parents, then he had a lovely surprise for me! :D hahah we did the art thingy! erm, the one that you colour, then put into oven. hahaha can we do it again soon? like find the biggest place so have many designs. :D hehehe. it was succesful and lovely :D it's on my cupboard wall now :D and then we went his hse and i cooked. :D well. with help frm his mama luh. :D both of us din spend much; well with vdae and anniversary coming up, i rather save for the extra special event! ;)

after christmas, mundane days return. oh my how mundane. okay how about ATTACK OF MUNDANE DAYS. D:

there's rly nth much to blog about. unless i blog about juxtoposition and enjambement, and rhythmic patterns and how it goes ABAB or ABBA. tsk. or how different policies affect like fiscal, monetary and C+I+G+(X-M). or how air is uplifted, or the difference in the patterns of the isotherms btwn northern and southern hemispheres. sigh. its like hw and hw and hw and studying and hw. :\ and shit, i think i kinda forgot how to write essays, structure etc. damn.

and whats with motorcycles and their loud brrrrrrrrrrr!s? stupid damn annoying ok. i know that sound can be omitted one, just that they dont want.

okay the weather is super annoying and im damn cranky. like super uber cranky. life hasnt been good and its gonna spiral down nxt year. it doesnt rly help when im at home too. "home is whr the heart is." yeah right. six more years. how i wish things would've been different. i swear im not gonna be like that next time. how i wish i could ease the pain.

speaking of that i decided i really wanna take care of my kids next time. like, maids? no way. i dont wanna work and leave my kids alone. im going to cook everyday and let my kids bring bento sets to school. :) maybe make extra sets for her frens once in a while too. :D im hoping for a girl. like everytime i see boys outside fighting with each other, i fervently hope i have a girl nxt time. :\

i rly hope i can get into business for uni. otherwise i have nowhr t go anymore! :( i cant do sci stuff, nor too artsy stuff. grrr. sigh. my future is like a big question mark.

except the part whr i dont have t study anymore and i can happily bake heart and stitch-shaped cookies and cakes and cook everyday and settle into a simple life as a housewife. :) and teach piano/tuition when the kids are at school/ballet lessons etc... ah. blissful. and when my baby comes home my whole family wil eat homecooked dinner, and then watch tv before we read our kids bedtime stories and tuck them into bed, telling them there's no boogeyman. X) and then it'll be just the two of us. :) mundane? i dont think so. kids are like the source of life. (: plus, i dont have to study anymore. ;)

okay im day-dreaming. :\ 10 more years till i lead the life i want. instead of being stuck in this stupid education system whr a degree is how ppl look at you. TSK. well at least i took the first step of learning how to be a good wife next time! :) i know how to whip up a few dishes alrdy! like steamed crabs with vermicilli, stir-fry veggies or whatever, steam herbal chicken, ABC pork ribs soup! :D are you amazed! hahaha take that ling, deb or whoever always say i cant cook hohum! X) and at least i know how to wash clothes and do housework. :) hmmm. im gonna search for baking lessons to attend with darling's mama. :D teehee. hopefully i can find.

okay im little bit cheered up now cos im gg shopping with baby tmr!!! :D for CNY luh. yay yay. :D cant wait! we're gonna eat CPK for lunch, my treat! since i have $20 bucks voucher. and hmmm. i dont know, maybe billy bombers for dinner? or sth cheaper if we buy alot stuff. :D hopefully its a fruitful trip :) i wanna get 2 bags. one bagpack and one shoulder bag. and erm dorothy perkin's or armani exchange's top. just buy the essentials; the rest can wait. :) dont wanna spend too much at a go. teehee. i love you baby; penguin will be happy soon! ;)

now that christmas is over there're a few events/occasions that i look forward to and that are very near!
1. CNY. :D
2. korean clay workshop? :D :D it'll be quite ex but i think it's super sweet to make clay models etc together XD hehehe.
3. vdae ;)
4. our one year anniversary!!! <3 XD
5. my bdae. IM TURNING EIGHTEEN! oh boy oh boy! :D

heheh. :)

okay off i go. to do hw. :(

-jinghui-

Labels: christmas was lovely with you. :D

i love zoo :)

Monday, December 22, 2008

with ♥ 6:55 PM

i love the zoo :D teehee. and i love baby too. (:

and yes my favourite animal is still the penguin :D heheheheh. they're really cute. X) waddle waddle :) otters are cute too. :) and i hate alligators and lions and erm. i dont know ath that wil be able to eat me.

what a wonderful world. <3

-jinghui-

Labels: under the mistole.

The Gift.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

with ♥ 6:03 PM

cecelia ahern's new book is really nice. :) like really really nice, but the main character died. :( okay, i cried. X\ but its like really meaningful book cos it kinda made me ponder over the message the book was trying to convey. but tsk, why cant it be a happy ending? :(

still. it was a good book. and funny at some times too. lol. :D at least cecelia ahern din let me down this time round. ;)

back to doing hw. :\

-jinghui-

oopsie-daisy. X)

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

with ♥ 5:58 PM

and zomg cheryl chungs!!! i just saw your blog. i managed to make you love daiso too huh hahahhaa :D and i wanna watch twilight too :(

and i SO do not act like a mother! :\ oh dear. hahahha. but it was kinda funny that day when you kept exclaiming that im like your mum with like every single move i make. lol. great; i bet ling's gonna laugh at me. stupid toufu.

-jinghui-

little miss confused.

with ♥ 5:41 PM

im so confused by everything now! either the world is odd, or IM odd. :\ i choose to believe the first one. (:

im seriously so in love with daiso :D i can like shop w/o worries. bought really cute letter pad a few days back :D teehee, and a rice cum cookie mould!!!! :D :D I MADE TWO RICE HEARTS WITH THAT. :D how about that! hahahahahha. gave one to darling and one to his mama! (: heh. im gonna try new recipes soon yay. (: dont they always say "the way to a man's heart is through his stomach"? ;) well not that im not already in his heart but its always better to make him smitten huh. XD

okay these 2 days were the most boring days. i mean, how can training be fun? so tired. :\ tmr im gonna stay home to do my HOMEWORK. ima good girl; left lit and geog! gogogogogog. (:

okay im like so waiting for next week, when deb's exams over and chang is back. then we can watch twilight. zomg everyone's talking about it and i haven watch tsk! hmph. see debbie lim we're so nice to wait for you okay. X) and christmas is coming; i cant wait to go shopping. :D okay all these is like, after i finish my intensive mugging hw session :\ -big sighs-

and okay for once i'd trade shopping for zoo and escape theme park (: maybe im gg nxt week with love!!! to escape theme park yays :) i hope all goes well. i mean it isnt even decided. hahaha im just blabbering :D stil planning! (:

zomg ting lent me Forensic Heroes 2, and dingding died okay!!!! zomg zomg. :( crappies. sighs! just when i was like crying over FH1 when dingding and ah chen were so sweet and get engaged. sheesh what a pooper. and channelU 10pm-11pm new show is nice :D junki is pretty; zomg he's like prettier than me! D: lol. (:

okay ima go rush hw and xmas stuff. (:

-jinghui-

Labels: reality hits.

a little love.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

with ♥ 9:22 PM

my com officially died. daddy's gonna take it to the doctor's soon. :( apparently it has lost some formatting stuff. sighs.

and some food for thought. i saw a eurasian mother and a black child today, hand in hand, walking in my condo area, laughing. i think the eurasian mother adopted her, cos i heard the little girl calling her "mummy". it was a lovely sight, and it made me ponder for some time. would it have changed the terrorists' minds if they saw this sight and thousands wouldnt have died these few years? i dont know. i wish it had. cos it kinda strike me that a little love's all we need sometimes, and set those prejudices aside. i guess things would've been different. and a big thumbs up to that mother, cos it aint gonna be easy in this world of ours. :\

i wonder when things will change. sighs.

and tmr has sucky bmt again. on the bright side, christmas is next week.

-jinghui-

Labels: a few more months and im free.

i hate holidays.

Friday, December 12, 2008

with ♥ 4:56 PM

i really do. like once holidays start, i have to get used to it. and when it ends, i have to get use to school again. TSK.

then again, this isnt really a holiday.

aiyah. holidays spoil me too. i get to see dear often; when school starts i cant anymore :( now w/o seeing him for a day i feel weird. crap.

i miss you alrdy, darling! :( i love you neo sheng xiong! stupid, stop teasing me with what my ahma said okay mr neo sheng xiong. hahahaha X) and zomg i wanna nua luh. grrr.

and im feeling uber lazy. can i not go to the BF camp? :\

-jinghui-

:) fat from it all.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

with ♥ 8:07 PM

ive been eating alot nowadays, like, alot. :D oh dear. hahaha. and yst i jus ate like, abalone, sharks fin, prawns, cakes...... :\ oh dear. hahaha! and i jus ate famous amos cookies! uh-oh.

yst baby's bro's wedding was lovely. :D the bride was really pretty! i cant wait for the day its my turn to be pretty :) okay anyway. it was kinda boring in the afternoon, but when we gt to the place for makeup and stuff it was fun. :) darling's mama was pretty yst too; though the long dress was a bad idea cos i saw alot of ppl stepping on her dress and there's nth i can do except help her lift it off the floor once in a while :\ anyway, food was nt too bad, and i got to wear my daniel yam dress at last! :D and i'll wait a year t wear it for prom. (: save money, ahahha. and i think baby's hot in his zara blazer and tie and long sleeved top. (: he made my heart stop for many seconds. then again, he always do. hahahaha dont fly away with that ego of yours, love.

erm yeah thats all i guess. i was jus eating and eating. hahahaha. wedding wasnt much like those perfect weddings ive seen, but well it made me cry at certain parts. just a little. (: too bad i missed the part they said "i do"; i'll probably bawl or sth.

i hate after-weddings. i have this really odd feeling, like nostalgic or sth. okay gosh why on earth am i even studying when all i wanna do is get married and take care of kids? :\ im like really seriously considering nt gg to business in uni anymore after a year studying econs; i dont mind taking up early childhood etc. i think being a kindergarden tch is kinda nice. i'll enjoy my job. :) okay i still have a year to think. in the meanwhile..........(fill in the blanks. what do students do before A levels? D:)

im like obsessed with cooking now! im learning how t cook frm darling's mama. :) so far no big blunders like spilling the entire wok or sth. phew. ahhahaha. okay next im gonna learn how t cook vermicelli since baby said he loves it. :D teehee.

okay im jus kinda in a day-dreamy mood now. told you i hate after-weddings.

and baby was really sweet; he bought me cecelia ahern's new book "the gift" (: to cele our 9 mths together. silly boy, whr gt ppl cele 9 mths one. hehehe. we're gonna be one years old! :D i cant wait. (: and i cant stop feeling silly and smile to myself when he insisted on sending me to my doorstep yst cos it was late. X)

iloveyou. (: zomg i hope 6 years go past fast. :(

-jinghui-

Labels: weddings.

what a crappy holiday.

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

with ♥ 3:21 PM

look. its dec alrdy and i haven finish my hw. thats really bad. sheesh. and this holiday totally suck cos its supposed t be the "last" holiday until A levels end, but LOOK! im like, a complete busy no-nonsense woman on a mission. sigh.

okay. maybe im jus annoyed i cant go ling's hse today, and i need a proper full-force shopping which i probably wil ask ling or go myself. :D full-force means barely any stops t rest and shop non-stop for hours happily. (: ling seems like the only one who managed it and we always have pleasant shopping experiences. (: esp @ orchard. :D

okay anyway. that'll have t wait. my schedule is packed lah. zzz. okay lets see. nth much exciting happened since the last time i blogged. oh yes. my com's old and cranky alrdy. i seriously need t start saving and get my own laptop soon. it takes like 5-10 min t start up. and its slow. sighs. oh well.

erm. and darling treated my parents t CPK, which thereafter we went shopping (: teehee. he bought a lovely long-sleeved shirt from esprit which he totally looked hot in, and i made him buy all the stuff he need for CNY. like socks and towel. :D i saw a really pretty pink top from dorothy perkins. i wanna get it for CNY :D teehee. i hope it isnt gone soon. :D and OH. i bought many many boxes and i love daiso. my room is lovely now. heheh. (:

okay so erm. baby went t visit my ah ma with me too. she loves him t bits, so everything went well. then i went his hse to COOK! zomg can you believe it. :D lesson ONE! i learnt how t fry. :D and dip the prawns and fish into the sauce and put it in the oil. teehee. pancakes conquered, now im moving on to larger things! hahahaha. okay i wanna try making mousse soon. (: yay!

and tmr is darling's bro's wedding! yippee, i get t wear my gown at last! (: im so excited. think of all the photos i can take!!!!!!! :D yay yay yay. doing my own nails and makeup as usual i guess. christmas is coming, my pocket is burnt alrdy!

and im sick now that's the worst thing. i have MC for 2 days okay. grrr. will abstain from ba kwa these few days. it's frigging addictive :D

okay erm. nth exciting cming up this holiday except BFY camp which meanie and bao cming with me, and christmas, which im gg out with baby but dunno whr. (: i had a horrid experience last yr when i work on x'mas day, it was so squeezy when i wanna get home. so im really contemplating if we shld go see x'mas light ups. gosh, the horror.

and i need t go shopping for presents soon. :\ oh dear. can i tell santa that ive been good all year, and ask his reindeers and elfs to finish up my hw so i can be a perfect little angel and go shopping for presents for my loved ones soon? :D :D :D

dear santa,

i've been a good girl this year. i dont really need any christmas present this year; i have a request though. all i want for x'mas this year is your lovely elfs and reindeers' help... to finish my ohmyfrigginggoodness hw! :\ pretty please? i'll leave a cookie [famous amos, if you like], a cup of milk [full cream. i believe with all the hard work you're doing, you've lost weight] and all my hw for collection by..... erm. the window? the door? you choose. (: thanks, santa. xoxo.

ps: dont forget you have t return me my hw by 12 january!!!

with lotsa love,
jinghui

there! maybe santa wil agree t help. (: hahaha zomg im turning retarded.

-jinghui-

Labels: in the christmas mood. :D

300th post. (:

Thursday, December 04, 2008

with ♥ 5:55 PM

today i stayed home whole day long packing my room: spring cleaning galore! :D hey. im not kiasu okay! i see that twitch of lips. Chinese new year is nxt mth!!! :D i gt alot of cleaning to do. :\ its been years since i really did a proper spring clean D: yucks. hahaha

today i kinda like threw away lotsa stuff and i feel so :D. haha. and there goes the past; ive put it behind me w/o any regrets cos now the future's more than enough for me. (: mmmm. and baby's having lunch with my parents this sat :D apparently we're going to CPK!!! lovely; i love that place it has like the best pizzas :D and i love their chips with spinich sauce; its frigging good :D

okay dinner here i come! im so hungry.

and did i mention again that i love daiso??? hahaha. (: i need more boxes! zomg i need to exclaim again. my room's so much neater now! still alot more work t do though :\ ahhaa.

-jinghui-

Labels: how time flies., oh

happy birthday, love (:

Monday, December 01, 2008

with ♥ 9:39 PM

happy 21st birthday darling :D i hope you had a lovely day with all the surprises and stuff. :D yay, i now proclaim myself as............................Dr. Heng! :D oh yes, i major in planning. got my phd just today. :D okay this is completely retarded. im jus tired now after a whole day of surprises and fun :D haha i love you baby. :D

okay erm. lets see what ive been doing recently. hmm. NOTHING. grrr. nonsense trainings that take up my stupid days. i hope i fall sick soon. i want to rest @ home! sighs. okay the only big event was charity funfair which was fun :D baby went and he met my [almost] entire family. lovely. they loved him to bits. (: which is a good thing, except tt im annoyed he wasnt freaked out and i was when i met HIS months back. and I took SO long for things to be the way they are with his parents, and all he took was HOURS. hohum. :\ charisma, they say.

mmmm. then nth much nor exciting le. except today. :D my little brain's been busy thinking of wat t do and stuff, and ran errands yst like mad. :D which is of cos, worth it. :D teehee. i hope baby had a damn memorable 21st bdae. :D okay probably all im gonna blog abt today is, erm, today. hah.

went his hse early in the morning and surprised him cos he was still asleep. :D made pancakes and they were lovely, and apparently im appointed to make somemore for his mama soon. ON MY OWN. i can do it okay. i dont flip pancakes out of the pan! :D :D :D hints, love. who ask you laugh at me! :D hmmm kbox was amusing and tiring [thats what u get when u only have 2 ppl] and daiso was lovely. i bought this really feasible and simple and plain plastic box for my nail polishes etc. i hope everything fits in. anyway. daiso's nt the point today.

we had lovely picnic which i woke up DAMN early to prepare. :D which, of cos again, was worth it. (: we ate sandwiches i prepared that was bountiful of fish floss, and snacks and cake. wind was too strong, din light candles i brought. and then we spent several hrs jus being in each other's company, as we waited for sunset. which, was....lovely. (: im yes, lazy, to post photos so that'll have to wait cos my Forensic Heroes in channel u START ALRDY!

goodbye!

-jinghui-

Labels: i love you sweetie. (: